I have come to the conclusion that I hate my job. I feel like if I have to sit at my desk one more day and transcribe medical documents for mumbling, ESL, speed-talking, burping doctors I’ll go nuts! When I was typing a tape the other night, this doctor took a slight pause on his tape and “broke wind”! Obviously, he thinks so little of the person transcribing his dictation that it’s okay just to “cut the cheese” loudly without a thought to how gross it might be to me!! Oh, and does the fact that this doctor does colonoscopies make you any more nauseous? With all the gas passage going on, sounds like he needs his own services. (My nice way of saying for him to stick it up his…)
I started a new job a few weeks back with the hope that I’d be doing mostly editing for the speech recognition software this particular hospital uses. I found out yesterday, that does not take place for another 3 months! I’m not a happy camper. I don’t want to wait three months, especially when I need to know what the editing job is like ASAP so I can decide whether or not to take another transcribing job I’ve been offered making more than I have in the past and more than this current job. The only thing there is I’m not happy with the hours they need me to work. So it’s looking like neither of the new jobs are going to work out, and I’m at a crossroads.
I checked out the classifieds on our local newspaper’s web site last night, and today I faxed my resume to two companies and will mail it to a third. Will I, though, be working just to be able to GO to work outside the home? Gas prices, money for clothes to wear, daycare, wear and tear on my car, makeup, meals out if I don’t pack my lunch, etc. Any extra money I might make would just be spent on these things, right?
I’m at a loss as to what else I could do at home. I’ve tried to figure out these work-at-home message boards that profess to have the list of legitimate businesses that allow you to work from home. Good grief! It’s like a secret cult where they disquise the names of the companies, i.e.: M*D*N*L*D* (McDonalds), and I even replied to a few of the posts only to see my replies disappear for some reason. WTF??
When I write down the pros and cons between the two jobs I have now and then the pros and cons of keeping one of these jobs that allows me to work at home versus going back to work outside the home, all I end up with is a couple of lists! Nothing jumps out at me telling me which would be the better choice.
You know what my biggest worry is? My age and my looks. I don’t think it matters how intelligent I am or how qualified I am for the job. What matters is how old I am and how I look. The last job interview I went on, last year as a matter of fact, I was at least 10 years older than the oldest person in the office. It was nerve wracking being interviewed by someone knowing that I might be old enough to be their mother! I thought 40 was the new 30? No? And we may have had more in common than she realized since I’m a 44 YO mom of a 4 YO boy doing the soccer mom thing.
Oh, well. I have a friend who says what’s meant to happen will happen. I believe that, but what do I do in the meantime? LOL!